A few years ago I was in a terrible car accident and sustained a severe traumatic brain injury TBI. I did not know what a TBI was before that fateful day, and there is still much to know about brain injuries. What I did learn is what a complex and amazing organ the brain is. There must be a God and he must have created us. You could not convince me otherwise now that I have learned how amazing the organ in my head I had always taken for granted really is.
Without going into too much detail about the car accident, it left me out of work for an extended period of time, with no promise of when I could return to work, or normal life.
In the interim time period between the accident and waiting to see what our new normal looked like, my husband and I learned to live on his income. As I was beginning to step back into work, we learned I was pregnant! As the accident occurred right as we were hoping and planning for kids, this was welcome news. Because we were already living on 1 income, and I had not yet returned to full time work, we decided I would stay at home with our kiddos.
Being a stay-at-home-mom was never something I aspired too. I LOVE kids and have been desiring children for as long as I can remember. However, I learned that I receive much of my worth and validation from being successful in the work place. Being a successful, working mom has always been my plan. If anything I'd given thought to working only part-time if finances allowed. Being home full time was NOT my plan.
It was God's plan.
Through it all I have LOVED and cherished all the time I have with my son and all the ways we can bond as I care for him on a day-to-day basis. Staying at home with him is something I will never take for granted. I may not have chosen this role, but it is better than any "career" plan I would have chosen for myself.
Another HUGE blessing of the accident/staying home etc. is my relationship with the Lord.
I'll never forget the day I asked Jesus into my heart and truly believed in him as my savior, but I've never devoted true time to learning about God's character. I've devoted lots of time to learning "things" or leaning about biblical history or stories, going on mission trips, etc., but not time basking in his presence. Staying home with my son has opened up doors I would not have imagined. I'm currently in a bible study with some other amazing stay-at-home mom's. We are walking through Priscilla Shirer's Discerning the Voice of God. Yesterday's lesson was eye opening for me. Priscilla is talking about hearing from God and I love this piece of wisdom:
"When God chooses to speak to us, His Word will always in some way be designed to point us to Him and open up our understanding so that we can experience Him more fully.Without knowledge of the nature of God, obedience to Him becomes more difficult, if not impossible. The more you know and believe to be true about who God is and what He can do, the more willing you become to obey what He commands."
She continues talk about how it is more important to seek God, in order to know him more fully, as opposed to just seeking the answer to our problem.
This season of life has allowed me the opportunity to read through the Bible. While I have often felt it was futile as I was not really studying as I was reading, I am learning, through Priscilla's teaching, that just sitting in God's presence is helping me to grow in relationship with Him.
There is ALWAYS a silver lining.
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